Impossible is nothing..

people ask me " are you lonely?" my answer is " with Allah, i never feel lonely"

people dont stop.. and they still ask " arent you feel bothered" my reply will always be the same " with Allah no boredom inside me"

people might think that i am bluffing. and trying very hard to cover myself from admitting being a "loser". i have nothing to admit except a declaration that i bear witness there is no God but Allah and Muhammad is the messenger of Allah. and i am not a loser by strongly holding to that declaration.

i do admit i feel bored as soon as i wake up from my sleep. i beat the feeling with zikr. i sit and i use my fingers, reciting numerous of zikrs. i started my days with a very simple " Ya Allah" and also " La Illahaillah". after that i feel the boredom gone like the wind.. no more emptiness inside my head. i feel energetic and ready to begin my life for that day. Masya-Allah.... very beautiful feeling..



now let's talk a bit about loneliness. for me, loneliness depends on ourselves. if we think we are lonely, then we are lonely. and we are easily being trapped in the game of heart and lead by our eternal enemy.. the satan. we must beat the loneliness and the blues. take the wudhuk, read the Al-Quraan. peace, calm, tranquility will follow later.

when i was a baby, Allah took my father away. as i grew and became a woman, i have nobody beside me that i could call "honey", "baby", "abang", "sayang".... and yet i dont feel lonely and empty. because i have the Master Of The Universe with me all the time. He gives me so much love and i sometimes forget what is loneliness. and i often remind myself the feeling of loneliness is a kind of alarm that alert us satans are near us, whispering this and that. i think we are lucky for having Him on our side, say His name and say salam to the prophet.. the satan and his army of loneliness will go away...



am i bluffing? no.. i am not.. i am not lonely. but people tend not to believe... :) but with Allah, impossible is nothing...

yes i might change.. but i pray may it wont happen and keep being a fighter... and yes i need His love for that.. i wont stop getting it. Insya-Allah...